Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Week 43 - San Roque 4/8/2012

 alright so no email so i will just start so this week was fun all time low for lessons a whopping 3 but thats ok lots of meetings and lots of things were accomplished but yesterday during conference i realized something i have been slowly learning during my mission and that is even if you are doing the right thing you still have to be in the right place or there is no use in you doing good this all started with an experience i had in dulag we were teaching an investigator while the neighbors were having a dance party so the music was loud and no matter how hard we tried we couldn't teach with the spirit so no use the same kind of thing happened during conference saturday i was one of the lucky 5 elders in the whole mission who got to attend and that is only because i am in the branch presidency but i learned tons and learned i wasn't even close to fulfilling my priesthood responsibilities while i was a youth during president Uchtdorf's talk as he talked about becomeing deacons quorem president i was like hey iwas that too but i did absolutley nothing that i should have and during the later saturday sessions i learned a lot about becoming a parent someday then sunday in the morning i sat in the very front and learn tons as well but in the second session i sat in the back with our branch but then they left and went to the Tagalog and then a bunch of RM's and SA's replaced them yay!?!?!?!?! not they were loud and obnoxious and i couldn't hear hardly anything no matter how hard i tried to focus so i just started thinking and kind of out of anger i thought to my self and wrote in my study journal this question. If we don't listen to the servants of God why would God listen to us? and after that i was able to focus a little better and learn a few more things I'm just glad for what i learned form my study in Mosiah about Abinadi that no matter what the situation as long as we stay calm the spirit will help but that's the problem if we dont surround our selves with good influences it is really hard to keep our cool so no matter what we do the spirit wont want to help so we really need to make sure we surround ourselves with good and make sure we are providing a good environment for the people around us to learn and i really feel bad about this topic because before my mission i just didn't care and i know that's horrible but i just didn't get it until i got here i really didn't understand anything about the gospel because of my attitude towards others but now i would like to apologize to all those that i may have distracted from learning especially the other youth in our ward i wasn't the person i should have been and never realized how big an effect i can could have on other people by simply hindering there learning during church meetings and i am truly sorry and hope you can all forgive me for the things that i have done in the past and for my bad example and i can promise you i am a completely different person than you all knew before and hope i can continue to improve and help others come closer to Christ by providing them with a proper learning environment and also for my self to learn and be a good example to all of you now and when i come home some day well i love you all and hope you all recieve this and are able to share it with others but until next week paghinay hah! 





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